- How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
I am a 33 year old female. It is hard to give a general description of myself-I feel I can be very different in different contexts.
- Is there a medical diagnosis that impact your mental/comportamental stability somehow?
- Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
Both my parents were teachers, so I was a so-called "teacher's kid." Naturally, I was expected to get good grades and generally did, but I definitely had periods when I would slack (maybe in rebellion?). I was in accelerated classes and graduated high school when I was 16. As far as religion goes, my mom was Catholic and my dad embraced some love child of agnosticism and Buddhism. I myself went to church usually when asked to by my mom, but sometimes would resist going. I went through a period of trying out strict Christianity, and then agnosticism, and now am kind of into some kind of atheism/existentialism/Buddhism love child thing.
My parents generally were good, upstanding citizens, but were somewhat emotionally unavailable. We usually did not express affection and I never felt commended on achievements. They also tended to not take it well if I disagreed with some of their opinions. Oh, and my mom was a hoarder.
I might be going off on tangents. In short my childhood was somewhat structured, and I went along with it often but also did what I wanted on quite a few occasions.
- What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
I work in mental health. I like some aspects of it (love reading about psychology) but find being around and supporting people all the time draining. I currently am pursuing a master's in public health to explore a related field that may not be quite as interactive and may have a research component.
- If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
I would feel refreshed, calm, and satisfied.
- What is your relation with movement and your surroundings? For instance do you prefer a sport or outdoors event? If an outdoors event what is it? And why? If not what type of activities do you tend to engage in?
Movement is a bad boyfriend and my surroundings are neglected children. I have never been graceful. I learned how to ride a bicycle later than the other kids and then would try to hide this fact out of embarrassment. I also got some broken bones while engaging in physical activities.
As for my surroundings, I am often oblivious to them and can be "spacey" or "ditzy." The only time I pay close attention really is when I'm cleaning (I get into modes where I really get into cleaning).
- How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I am fairly curious, and like to read a lot. I have ideas that I cannot execute. My main issue, though, is that I can identify a lot of problems in the world without thinking of a workable solution.
Some of my curiosities include thinking about the nature or value of human existence. Complex life happened by accident, possibly by a bunch of chemicals in rock formations interacting with electrons at the hydrothermal vents in mid Atlantic ridge. After that, a bacteria got into a prokaryote to make a eukaryote, and several steps down the road here we are: humans. It's very accidental and bizarre, and now we have to think about what we want to do with this life that we have. The fact that this is what we're working with has cultivated an interest in philosophy in me, and I spend a lot of time thinking about how to live.
The way I try to address this issue now is by trying to think of ways that I can better myself (by gaining more knowledge and self awareness) and the environment (by improving environmental and human health). I want to help people from a distanced space, and research interests me (though I am not yet participating in any formal research). I am particularly interested in exploring how trauma in humans affects their attitudes and their health (since I am studying public health). Right after college I moved to a higher crime area and noticed people didn't take care of themselves or have a positive attitude about the healthcare system. I do not have good solutions to these problems but am currently trying to get into some kind of research position to learn more about them. My husband believes I would be happiest in a research job, and I'm starting to agree with him.
- Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
Hell no. I don't think I would be a good leader. I am passive and find it hard to directly say there is one best way to do something. I can drum myself up to be enthusiastic, but that energy is short-lived.
- Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
I am not coordinated. I was kicked out of ballet class. I enjoyed sculpting as a kid and sometimes like to cook now.
- Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
I used to draw and play in a band, but don't participate anymore. I definitely enjoy art, particularly surrealistic art. I love it when a painting can express a complex idea or stance and also be executed technically well. My favorite artist is Hieronymus Bosch, a Dutch painter from the 1500s, who did incredibly intricate work showing his views on the nature of the world and reality.
- What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
Past, present, and future are constantly interacting with one another to pretty much be the same thing. As stated, I struggle with anxiety so I sometimes worry about bad things happening or dwell on past mistakes. I try to make my life as minimal as possible to prevent negative events or being overwhelmed by my own needs. I have a hard time feeling connected to the present.
- How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
I would generally help them. I can be a people pleaser and have a hard time saying no.
- Do you need logical consistency in your life?
- How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
Efficiency is more important to me than productivity, but they are both somewhat important. I do not like wasted resources, and try to live my life in a way that everything that needs to get done gets done efficiently and without using too much money. I am not very productive though-my idea of a good day is one in which I lounge around reading but manage to get the house clean.
- Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
I don't generally like to control others.
- What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
My main hobbies are reading or watching youtube videos about different topics, and taking classes. I like to learn. I also like to cook-maybe because my mom didn't really cook and I think I should be competent in it.
- What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
I think I do my best learning through having a main concept explained in a way that the other parts make sense. I prefer classes that involve logic, critical thinking, and theory.
- How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
I am good at making a project efficient, and break up projects into fairly manageable tasks. When I am actually completing the task, though, I find myself diverging from the plan and improvising.
- What's important to you and why?
Freedom is important to me-I don't want to feel I can't do what I want because I am tied down to jobs or loans or what have you. Learning is important to me because I want to understand the world and be well-informed. It's important to me to live a life that makes sense to me and feels authentic. Meaningful relationships are important to me.
- What are your aspirations?
I want to understand the world. I want my inner life to be consistent with my outer life.
- What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
I fear not being enough. I fear not being competent and looking like an idiot. I fear dying unexpectedly.
I am uncomfortable around strangers or people who don't "get" it.
I hate people who are close-minded, because they restrict the growth the world could experience and also judge things prematurely, without actually knowing anything. They tend to make snap judgments. I think I am misunderstood and judged by them as well.
- What do the "highs" in your life look like?
Highs in my life look like fully grasping a concept, coming up with a new idea or research question, or connecting intimately with a loved one.
- What do the "lows" in your life look like?
Lows look like me not communicating well, and being judged, misconstrued.
- How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
I daydream. I have told I look like I am talking to myself, but I am daydreaming about conversations I would have. I am often unaware of my surroundings, unless something glaringly needs to be done.
- Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
I think about my life goals and how to achieve them.
- How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
It takes me a long ass time, and I change my mind frequently.
- How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
It takes me a while to process my emotions. Writing them down helps. Emotions are only important in terms of how they make sense logically, help me understand myself or others better, fit into an overall system, or can help guide or fine tune goals. So, they are moderately important, but not on their own.
- Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
Yes, sometimes I do this, but it is inauthentic. I feel uncomfortable imposing my views on others at times and can be a people pleaser. I do it every so often, usually with people with whom I am not comfortable.
- Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why would you?
I break rules if they don't make sense and I want to do something different, and if the benefit of breaking said rule outweighs the consequence.
- What is the ideal life, in your opinion?
The ideal life is an authentic one in which one's inner self is reflected in his or her outer life. The ideal life benefits the outside world in some way.
So I found this car on craigslist near me: I am going to be using it somewhat often but I am also prepared to deal with issues.
My main concern would be the fact that it’s an ES and i’ve heard they’re not as good as a 318is or something similar
1986 325ES- $5500 Old owner says they used to daily drive, but not perfect
Car has: Poly control arm and trailing arm bushings, Condor speedshop poly trans bushings, z3 steering rack, stainless steel brake lines, fresh valve cover gasket and half moons, new Ireland engineering long tube headers, Scorpion catback, Moorespeed performance build custom midpipe from Vibrant tuning. Entire exhaust is stainless. New Bosche O2 sensor, Ireland engineering short shifter, bushings. Garagistic DSSR with selector joint, new shift boot, radio delete panel, new dash bulbs, new oem spark plugs, fresh oil change with liqui moly semi synthetic, has replacement carpet from a used E30’s in it, not 100% finished still needs the trim pieces put back in new accelerator bushings, fuel filter, high pressure fuel pump, renown steering wheel, replaced headlights with new euro smiley headlights, new grille, needs front and rear bumper covers. Paints decent has a bubble on roof, and spoiler. Dash is not cracked and interior is in great shape, has bilstein b12 shocks and Ireland engineering lowering springs with spare set of springs
I have yet to go look at it but i am planning on it soon